Monday, 29 March 2010


Its funny, well not funny. Actually if you laugh at my situation you're a bit of a r'tard. But its weird, that it's exactly a year since things when shit for me last year.

Exactly a year ago I couldn't eat/sleep/.
Exactly a year ago the panic attacks got worse.
Exactly a year ago I cried whenever I was alone.

And its exactly a year later I start to feel like myself again.

The weird thing?

The weird thing is that I've been hurt worse than I ever thought possible THIS year, worse than last year. And I feel like I'm jinxing it by saying it, but I'm starting to move on.

I mean I could be fooling myself, and it could all come rushing back and make me want to sit in the river and stay there. But right now. Feeling like Maria Allen :). I have to go through it each day, the "shiiiit that sucks" feeling. But with the help of some very good friends and some even better family I'm getting through it.

Anyway, the reason I'm writing this blog, is because the way I feel reminds me of my favourite poem. Its not really a "proper" poem by English Lit standards. But I memorised it when I was like...6. Ridiculous how I can relate to a children's poem so much aye?

'Who Nibbles the Moon?'

Who Nibbles the Moon? Who takes a bite?
Out of its roundness, night by night.
Till nothings left but a crust and then...
Who bakes the Moon all over again?
And hangs it up all round and bright,
Ready for nibble and bite



Mustard Bean said...

I love that poem. I remember when you first told it to me and I couldn't help but smile all the rest of the way home cause it's just so sweet.

I'm gald you're feeling more yourself again, you have no idea how proud I am of you.

I bloody love you Franis Alice!! <3

franis_alice said...

I bloody love you Lubey Lou :)

Thank you for being my Lube xxx